Shut Up In the Bones

Jeremiah 20:9



But if I say, “I will not mention him
   or speak any more in his name,”
his word is in my heart like a fire,
   a fire shut up in my bones.
I am weary of holding it in;
   indeed, I cannot.

When God calls us to do something, it will always be ringing in us until we do something about it.  It will "haunt" us (in a good sense of it) until we let it out.  It's like one of those where you have to let it out.  Or else, it wouldn't be right.

That's exactly how I felt when the Lord called me to full time ministry.  If I didn't do it, I would have felt spiritually constipated.  I had to let it out.  I could feel Jeremiah's anguish here... and yes, when times in the ministry when it feels like I want to "curse" the calling of God in my life (which I have not done, but yes, I have complained) it feels like Jeremiah who said "I wish I was never born just to experience pain in life." But the Lord always has a bigger plan.  God just wants us to obey.  He didn't say it was going to be easy or that things would run smooth when we obey His call in our lives.  He wants us to be faithful at every circumstance, no matter what happens.  We can trust that the Lord's statutes are firm (Psalm 93) and they are trustworthy.  They will never lie nor lead us astray.  It is for His glory and for our good.  Walk in it!

Lord, I will obey you no matter what.  Thank you Jesus for praying for me that those who hear my message that comes from You, will listen to it and hear it for their hearts fulfillment.  Help me to always be grateful - and I am grateful for the calling you have in my life to work for Your Kingdom.  Thank You, Your Word is a lamp unto my feet and my light unto my path.  I will never move away from you.  Please help me to do that moment by moment.  I love You too Jesus.  Thank you for your love!  It never ends and You never let me go! YOU ARE WONDERFUL!  In Jesus' name, amen.